I really dunno what I'm feeling right now.. I thought I would feel better when he forgive me, and became friends again.. But i was wrong about that.

I feel like I dont want him from the beginning.. Ansd still, I cant.. I know that's mean. But I juz cant pretend to like him just to make him feel better.. Its juz not fair.. But its not fair to him either..

Everytime I dapat message dia, rasa macam terpaksa baca message dia.. Cuma dengan terima message dari dia, I dah rasa terbeban.. I tak pernah rasa happy bila ingat tentang dia.. Antara I dengan dia memang takde 'chemistry'.. We juz dont meant to be together..

I never meant to hurt him.. Neither to fooled him. I was just trying to do the right thing. But right thing seem wrong to me. Its not about him.. or anyone.. But its about me.. I juz cant lie to him..nor myself.. I never felt anything toward him..

Doesnt matter how good he was, or how much he love me, it just doesn't count. I'm sorry..